How is it that when you are not fertile and trying to become fertile – you can spot a microscopic amount of blood on a peice of tissue that whould take an army of scientists to detect normally?
It was day 18 of my cycle yesterday – the first cycle on Clomid, and I saw it fort thing in the morning. Such a tiny amount of blood – it was hardly there. And yet it might as well have been a pint for the way it made me feel. Why is it that we can see this?
It was 8.03 am by the time I called the Clinic in Wellington to speak to the nurse. I had to leave a message, but got a reply in the afternoon. Our doctor thinks the best way to proceed is to have a monitired cycle next month – if it turns out that I am not pregnant. So that means spending a lot of time in Wellington having scans and tests all month. Oh joy.
So – why is this happening? This is the second time I have had this spotting mid-cycle. The first time was in May, and when I say the first time I mean it. I have mentrual cycles you could set watches by normally. Or I did right up till the time I started trying to conceive – and then I started having 26,28,30,31 and even a 32 day cycle. Sods law in action. Just when I need to stay calm and collected when my period doesnt arrive – my cycles start screwing around.
Anyway – Ive never had a midcycle blled – so I panicked the last time. After it turned into a proper period – I did go to the donctirs, who had no idea what it was , and diagnosed an “unexplained mid-cycle bleed”. A second tends to suggest that in fact fertilisation may have occured and my uterus is traitorously refusing to allow it to implant.
So I still wont know for sure till at leat the end of next week whether im pregnant or not.
